Boring
I don’t really remember making the last post. I had just gotten back from the bars and drank the only thing available in our house, Rockstar and Vodka, and probably nearly gave myself a heart attack after downing three of those. Good times.
I’ve been giving consideration today to why I hate poker so much. I’ve also been able to admit to myself that my work ethic is terrible and I’ve become a lazy poker pro. These two go hand-in-hand.
I used to put in solid hands. I’m talking about 60k hands per month, with an average of 4-6 tables running, which is a solid amount of hours.
However, back then, I used to make solid money. I also would keep moving up and keeping it challenging and fresh.
It all started to change once Bill Frist came into my life. Pretty much immediately following the passing of the UIGEA I lost motivation to grind long hours. This is ironic as this should have been a time I was putting in the most amount of hands possible before the games started drying up. It just took a lot out of me knowing what I had was going to be gone.
I have not even got a fraction of that motivation back. It doesn’t help I haven’t made much money since then. Again, you’d think this would be more motivation to put in hands. It’s just the way I work, I guess, that when things start going bad, I start to get unmotivated and cowardly towards pushing through the rough stretches.
I am frustrated because I don’t know how to get this motivation back. Despite the fact my cash flow is severely limited, I still don’t get the drive and desire to put in 4k hand days.
I think I become complacent with putting in 25k hand months while waiting for that big tournament score that would allow me to do nothing for awhile. That never came.
I see guys like CTS who are absolute machines when it comes to putting in hands. He wakes up and starts playing. He doesn’t stop until he’s too tired to keep punishing tagfish into oblivion.
It wouldn’t be that big of a deal if I used my free time on active pursuits or other business opportunities. Spending my free time playing Wii and refreshing BBV is a complete waste.
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I have also admitted to myself that my live, full-ring NL game, as well as my live tournament game, isn’t nearly as good as I thought it was. I’ll delve more into this tomorrow, I think, as I’d like to spend a good amount talking about it to help myself understand my leaks.
I’ve been giving consideration today to why I hate poker so much. I’ve also been able to admit to myself that my work ethic is terrible and I’ve become a lazy poker pro. These two go hand-in-hand.
I used to put in solid hands. I’m talking about 60k hands per month, with an average of 4-6 tables running, which is a solid amount of hours.
However, back then, I used to make solid money. I also would keep moving up and keeping it challenging and fresh.
It all started to change once Bill Frist came into my life. Pretty much immediately following the passing of the UIGEA I lost motivation to grind long hours. This is ironic as this should have been a time I was putting in the most amount of hands possible before the games started drying up. It just took a lot out of me knowing what I had was going to be gone.
I have not even got a fraction of that motivation back. It doesn’t help I haven’t made much money since then. Again, you’d think this would be more motivation to put in hands. It’s just the way I work, I guess, that when things start going bad, I start to get unmotivated and cowardly towards pushing through the rough stretches.
I am frustrated because I don’t know how to get this motivation back. Despite the fact my cash flow is severely limited, I still don’t get the drive and desire to put in 4k hand days.
I think I become complacent with putting in 25k hand months while waiting for that big tournament score that would allow me to do nothing for awhile. That never came.
I see guys like CTS who are absolute machines when it comes to putting in hands. He wakes up and starts playing. He doesn’t stop until he’s too tired to keep punishing tagfish into oblivion.
It wouldn’t be that big of a deal if I used my free time on active pursuits or other business opportunities. Spending my free time playing Wii and refreshing BBV is a complete waste.
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I have also admitted to myself that my live, full-ring NL game, as well as my live tournament game, isn’t nearly as good as I thought it was. I’ll delve more into this tomorrow, I think, as I’d like to spend a good amount talking about it to help myself understand my leaks.
posted by Bill Vosti at 6:43 PM
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